Well I'm half awake and half a world away
All my past mistakes and every wasted day
Means that I'll never change
I'll always stay the same
I wouldn't have it any other way


I'll try through my haze and half shut eyes
To count up all the reasons why
I should be back at home

You are my Penguin.


"So shines a good deed in a weary world."
~Lizard

Tonight I am going to get very drunk to erase the fact that you don't read this.
That you're not here.
Or do you?

Let it be known....


"Here's to thinking of you, baby"
~Liz

I've been stuck like this for so long

I haven't eaten anything all day, so I walked to the cafe aboot 20 mins ago.
It must be below zero
They were closed
I went to the machines to buy some snacks
All i had was fives
Every place was closed

How will I take the bus with a fucking $5 bill?

Whoever you are, thank you for giving me your spare change.
Without you, I would've spent four extra dollars I needed.

Everything has a purpose.

Where's my purpose?

I want you to know I've been trying to make myself better for you.
No one wants to love a mess

"Breath on my cold hands, won't you baby?"
~Tink

When I was younger I used to believe God took a block of human flesh, like clay.
And carved out two perfect bodies that were only meant to be with each other.
They only fit each other.

So, where's my mishapen piece of clay?

Love Me
Love Me
Love Me
Love Me
Love Me


"We'll never find each other, but we'll keep running."
~So Gone

I'll say it was 12:34
I just get out of the shower when the alarm goes off.
"FUCK! I'm wet! And naked! Fuck it, I'm taking my time. If I burn to death, at least no one will have seen me nude in the light."
Bedtime

It's funny how intelligent I become when I'm drunk. I actually wrote some pretty good stuff.
Heh, I had trouble spelling though.

I'm getting old of capitalizing myself

Big in '05 sucked
Worst award show i've ever seen
Why did i waste my time? Oh right. Def(th) Leopard

Ant, you're a prick
Andrianne, i'm sick of you

Everything is breaking my heart. The only thing that keeps me sane is the thought that you might actually read this and understand.
Life is not a fairytale, but can we at least pretend it is?

Read some Longfellow, and try to make me swoon as much as he does.

"I'm not tall, so don't get my hopes up."
~Lizard

It's not even about being lonely
It's about being invisible
There is nothing important or special about me that sticks out
I will always be mediocre
Just a ghost in a ghostless world
A string of hay in a needle stack
I'm not even that distinct, I just blend in

Do you get it?
Of course you don't

That is why I'm invisible


"Hail nothing, full of nothing, nothing is with thee."
~Lizard

I'm dropping out of college
I'm moving to Florida
I'm going to take acting lessons
I'm going to start a band
I'm going to do what I've always wanted to do
I've found my ko-ho-nahs ;)


"Maybe I'll find my lobster in Florida."
~Lizard

The matter of the fact is, I need a man to make me feel good about myself
I need him to hold me while I sleep
Hold my hand
Kiss my cheek
Push my hair out of my face
Rub my back when I cry
And make sure that I know everyday that I'm perfect and that we deserve each other

So, come and pick up my pieces, and put me back together.
Lets fly away to a place where we'll never grow old
We'll kiss in Paris
We'll make them turn their heads in jealousy
Neither of us can do it alone
We're perfect when we're together

The fact of the matter is, I can't live this life without you

                                                 R.I.P


                                  




                                              Pat Morita
                                              1932-2005


                                  "Mr. Miyagi, you're the best."